Formula One Retreat

I attended a Single's retreat last June 25-26 @ CCT Tagaytay. I know I believe in my heart that God is my savior and I will be saved and have eternal life through Jesus. But, I never fully surrender myself to Him. I realize that I have God as a mere help with all that is happening to me. I pray and ask for His help. Little did I know that all I need to do is to fully ask Him to take control. For me to just surrender and have faith in Him that everything will be done according to His will.

It's really hard surrendering everything, because there's always this fear. Sometimes I want this and that, but God wants the other way. Either way, I need to trust God that He know's what's best and it's for my own good.

I wanted to be spiritually mature for my boyfriend so I could be his strength in times of need. I wanted to grow spiritually for him so we could face life challenges. After this retreat I came to realize that I wanted to be God's best for him as well. I pray that I will be.

Don't know what to pray for

Just when I'm lost and really don't know what to pray, I came upon on this verse during my devotion.

Romans 8:26-27
²⁶ In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. ²⁷ And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God.

Pray and Pray

I read in devotion about - Praying until what you pray for has been accomplished or until you have complete assurance in your heart that it will be.

I have this prayer(s) and felt like God is no longer answering them. Or maybe He's answer is No. God reminded me that I shouldn't stop praying about it. He's listening and will answer them in His time.

Luke 18

The Parable of the Persistent Widow

¹ Then Jesus told his disciples a parable to show them that they should always pray and not give up. ² He said: “In a certain town there was a judge who neither feared God nor cared what people thought. ³ And there was a widow in that town who kept coming to him with the plea, ‘Grant me justice against my adversary.’

⁴ “For some time he refused. But finally he said to himself, ‘Even though I don’t fear God or care what people think, ⁵ yet because this widow keeps bothering me, I will see that she gets justice, so that she won’t eventually come and attack me!’”

⁶ And the Lord said, “Listen to what the unjust judge says. ⁷ And will not God bring about justice for his chosen ones, who cry out to him day and night? Will he keep putting them off? ⁸ I tell you, he will see that they get justice, and quickly. However, when the Son of Man comes, will he find faith on the earth?”

The Spiritual Practice of Trust

Trust is a spiritual practice that transforms us, that helps us obey the command against worrying.
Keri Wyatt Kent

One of the most startling and challenging commandments of Jesus is this: do not worry.

You may not even have noticed those three little words take the form of a command, or considered worry a "sin" to confess or avoid. But with this simple directive, "Do not worry about your life …" (Matt. 6:25, NIV) Jesus calls us to trust him, and to let go of having to control the outcome of every situation. When we do that, we will have joy, even in challenging circumstances. To do so requires a certain emotional detachment, a conscious letting go of needing to control the outcome of every situation.

It's not that we don't care; we do. But we cast our cares on him, let go of trying to control things that are truly beyond our control. Many of us are professional worriers. In fact, even our prayers are shaped mostly by worry. We get on our knees not to commune with God but to handle damage control for him, to alert him to what's going on in this crazy world and to suggest solutions.

Trust is a choice, the alternative to worry. Other people may misinterpret our trust as carelessness or irresponsibility. But really, we are simply turning over our lives, one moment at a time, to God's excellent and dependable provision. Trust is a spiritual practice that transforms us, that helps us obey the command against worrying.

Unlike other practices, such as prayer, study, solitude, and so forth, the practice of trust is not something we can schedule. We kind of have to wait for situations that would cause us to worry or fear, and in the midst of that situation, choose to believe that we are safe in the arms of God. We have to sail along and wait for a rogue wave or a sudden wind shift, and trust we will not capsize. We must be attentive to see the opportunity in a moment of struggle.

To choose to trust does not mean we don't care, but that we place our cares in the hands of one who cares for us.

In my book, Deeper into the Word, I wrote:

In English, the word "care" has two nearly opposite meanings. If someone cares, they are interested and concerned. If someone has a care, they perhaps have an anxiety or worry. Having someone care for us can alleviate our cares.

Likewise, in New Testament Greek, there are different meanings, but in some cases, several different words to signify those meanings. Merimna (and the verb form merimnao) means anxiety, or to have a care (this word is translated worry in Matthew 6:25). … Epimeleomai means to take care of, to provide for. It is used both in Luke 10 to describe the Good Samaritan's care for the wounded man, and in 1 Timothy 3:5 to describe the role of a bishop or overseer of the church—perhaps, some scholars suggest, alluding to a parallel between these two roles.

… 1 Peter 5:7 exhorts believers to give our anxiety over to the care of Jesus: "casting all your care (merimna) upon him, for he cares (melei) for you" (NKJV). It's an interesting play on words—we can release our cares (our anxiety, worries) to Jesus because of his care (his deep concern and loving provision) for us. This word care, when it refers to God, reminds us of his amazing love for us.

Jesus noted in Matthew 13:22 that the "cares (merimna) of this world" can choke out our spiritual growth. When life throws us challenging circumstances, we have a choice to make: will we worry or trust? Will we believe God is in control or expect the worst? This is the only place we have the opportunity to engage in the practice of trust—in the trenches of difficult circumstances.

Do you engage in the spiritual practice of trust? What will it take for you to embrace the truth that Jesus cares for you, deeply, and that you can entrust him with all your cares?

Holy Week

My to do list this holy week:
~ pray and fast on Thursday @ Prayer Mountain (Antipolo)

~ Watch Faith like Potatoes and Letters to God
~ More quiet time during my stay at the province
~ More prayers to fight off temptations
~ start a journal of my prayers

Love Believes the Best

APRIL 3
http://www.ccf.org.ph/love-believes-the-best/

To fall in love is one thing but to stay in love for a lifetime is SOMETHING.

Love bears all things
Love believes all things
Love hopes all things
Love endures all things

Love Believes the Best .. Endures the Worst

In the Christian Life:
The battlefield is in the mind

Advice:
When you wake up in the morning..
open your bible .. NOT email, NOT FACEBOOK!!!

Secret to a long relationship:
Positive Illusion
- give each other the benefit of the doubt

How to be a positive thinker:
believe that God is good,
nothing is impossible with God,
Confidence is in God alone not with people
Don't put your confidence in the ability of human nature to change people
but put your confidence in God's ability to change people...

If you don't assume responsibility on the way you think you will encounter problems.
Because the way you think impact lives and relationship.

By doubting people you don't help them but showing trust will empower them to change.

Do not judge so that you will not be judged.

Silver lining of the dark clouds

It came about as Aaron spoke to the whole congregation of the sons of Israel, that they looked toward the wilderness, and behold, the glory of the LORD appeared in the cloud.
Exodus 16:10

I was reading the devotion and I read this phrase "looked for a silver lining on the dark clouds" and then I read the newspaper lifestyle section and once again saw this phrase "looked for a silver lining on the storm clouds.

As of this time, I could perfectly relate to it. It's like Im being crowded by this dark clouds. Literally, when we went to Acuatico there are dark clouds all over which is a perfect setting on our disagreements/argument that night. I'm having this struggle since it's not just the first time. I know it's a petty sin compared to others but still I'm affected and hurt. I'm trying to be strong and act normal but its really really really hard. I'm constantly paranoid.

God knows what's in my heart. I just pray that I can hold on and be strong.

And I think it's God's way of letting me know that there is indeed silver lining on the dark clouds.