i cant fully explain how i felt for the past year. its been an emotional but blessed year.
Honestly, i still had hangups for what happened last 2011. Discovered a lot about our relationship, that totally wrecked me. im still praying God will heal me and just forget about those painful memories. i know God allow those things to happen for a reason for which i dont understand and I pray that He will just change us instantly to resist temptations and overcome pains. For me to be fully confident in Him and trust in His plans for me and my husband.
yes, now my husband.. due to some circumstances we were married in haste. its not what I dreamed of, the proposal and everything but its what I wanted at least.
then i lost my job, but thats okay. but then I lost my baby after 19wks. everyone was excited and to be honest im pressured. And then it happened. literally, wages of sin is death. I know God is telling us something and that He has greater plans we just need to go back to His time table,
remaining months went by, preparing for the wedding this year and then me finding a job.
and now, im a bit sad that not everyone are excited with the wedding. So im not excited as well. But its just a state of mind. Im excited for what God has stored for me this year. i know He will bless us again with a new baby and He will bless me with a wonderful changed husband.
